Today Brian was supposed to leave for Dubai.
I've thought about this for weeks now, and stewed over the fact that we weren't going; still feeling jipped out of an opportunity of a lifetime. I even had in my head a blog post where I would list all the things we were going to miss out on because we couldn't go to Dubai. Like the rich culture, and living by the ocean, and meeting new people from amazing places...
But today I have an entirely different perspective on life. We got Carter's most recent hearing test results yesterday, and his hearing has gotten worse. So much so that we need to get hearing aids for him. We're also questioning how much Abby can hear, so she will get an ABR in a few weeks. Suddenly everything has changed. Having a hearing impared child isn't the end of the world, but it is the end of life as we once knew. It will be different, and it may be scary. We don't know if Carters hearing will stay this way, or get worse. And I feel so sad for Carter. I feel sad that he will have this disability for the rest of his life. But I have to get over it. As my sister Ginny says, its not a disability, its a
different ability. Carter will be different, but I will never treat him differently, and I hope the world will do the same.
I've always known that Carter was going to be okay, but today on the way home from the ENT, I cried I think for the first time about his hearing. It's real now. I have a hearing impared child.
I am relieved to tears that we aren't going to Dubai. Considering these new discoveries with their health, we never would have gotten the care and services that Carter and Abby need there. Here, we have an instant network of doctors, therapists and services at our fingertips that will help our children get the care that they need. Not to mention our family and friends to support us. I am grateful that things have worked out the way they have, and feel that the Lord is guiding us through this challenge